Random Thoughts: Me, Myself and I | No.2

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Kept asking Me,Myself and I.. Emm.. why does unfortunate things happens at the wrong moments in our lives? Do you wish to know what the answer I got from a good psychologist?

“Unfortunate things happens to unfortunate people. Everyday or now and again.”

“How come?”

I asked him.

“Simple they aren’t lucky. The ones are lucky are fortunates. How on earth do you think people got random luck in becoming rich, known and famous? It’s pure luck. Nothing else.”

“Then are we all unfortunate people without richness, fame and to be known?”

“Indeed not. We are still like them you see. Rich in languages, Known to mankind as someone within your society only, Famous through your thoughts and behaviours”

I would pat my cheeks, shook my head and smiled. Blimey, the psychologist got me good using reverse psychology. I am an idiot. But a clever one indeed.

Sincerely,
Ellie Rayne

Random Thoughts: Epilog : Me, Myself and I

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It was me. It was myself. It was I. Nothing could ever stopped me from saying it is for Me,Myself and I. I was borned with an epilepsy then I shall die with it as well. Who are you to mock me, downgraded me and telling me I should have died when I was an infant? Just because it took time for me to cope and understand things.

“Mama seriously do not tell me you wished I was never been borned?”

“But why Mama. Why??”

“You are nothing but a worthless piece of shit. You have no work, you still studying at the age of 23 still. I was married to your father when I was your age and I was a degree graduate. You are a worthless piece of shit I say.”

Oh her words are too sharp and very hurtful to me. I may be catching up in education, I may not have a job yet. But I’ll say.. I’ll have it all in glory if God does not forbids it.

Sincerely,
Ellie Rayne

Random Thoughts: Had Enough Drama| Finale

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I heard it through ears of might, You mother had made your own husband look disgraceful. And you called him a bad husband. Then are you telling me you are the most angelic wife and mother around? You bitch slapped me hard, you whacked me with a spatula till I was hospitalized. You are a low-life person I never would forgive myself if my loving father dies in your hands mother.

I shall spit at your grave and say ‘May you rot in hell. You don’t deserve heaven. You are a mother with a mask that says ‘Hey lookie I am a witch in disguise’.  You’re the one filing the divorce do not drag us kids into taking sides. Pure wrong and not wise.

I hate my fucking asshole up life. I wish there is a door with an exit sign on it. And could just walk out of it and leave for good. And live my life for the better of mankind. I deserve happiness, tolerate, laughter and joy most times. I am only a child growing to become a proper lady. Please I need guidance not bullshit.

Sincerely,
Ellie Rayne